FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
my parents constantly fight because my step dad is a jack ass.
hasn't had a job for 3.5 years.
doesn't do jack shit.
yells at anna, kyle and i.
makes my mom feel stupid when she spends one penny, that he doesn't make.

i feel so bad for my mom even though i think she's psycho, but she's psycho for all the right reasons.
dear god it's not fucking fair that she has to feel like shit all the time.
her husbands dead-beat, her kids cause enough trouble, and she hates her job. and she goes to church, does devotionals 2x daily, and goes to bible study. now tell me, where's the fairness there?
why are we told that when you devote yourself to God, everythign then goes a little better? they say, you can handle it all, but why is God showering her with SHIT? it's not fair and it makes me want to doubt what I've believed in my whole 20years.

I have definitely lost a whole lot, if not all, the faith that i have in people. it's getting so hard to keep doing things that you think are going to help you, then get shot down again.
take heather, she opens her house to have a birthday party for her friend and someone fucking walks out with her laptop, flag, and tiffany's necklace.
do you have an respect !?!?
i park my car on a safe street and what happens when i find it? oh just a window bashed in and my purse, ipod, and some jewelry gone.
people just don't care about anyone else and it is really upsetting when others malicious actions have to ruin people's days. 
it's just getting really hard again and i don't really like it.
fuck money
fuck gangsters
fuck people who dont' respect others

this was a very bitter entry

i truly have the greatest friends.
it's heather's birthday in a week!!
i am going to cabo in 1 month.
i have a great guy.
i've been going to church.
my mom's going to africa for 2 weeks, yay for her, YAY for us.
summer is going to be amazing, so far so good.

well i'm not going to jinx anything, but i'm quite happy with the way my life is going right now. i'm having fun, meeting new people, and opening myself up to new experiences/people and it is paying off.

please pray for my step dad today, he's having surgery and i know he's going to be fine, but it's no harm asking God to watch over him.

i watched united 93 tonite and it was quite intense. i am glad that i saw it because it wasn't so long ago that it happened and i feel like the people of our country are just as much divided as we were before. it seemed at least for a couple of years that we decided to unite and become one rather than have so many different opinions and judgements. i just think that it is necessary for our country, any country at that to unite and be one rather than split down the middle. it means everyone compromising and everyone changing their views just a little. republicans and democrats alike..

but off that soapbox...

becky, i love you and am so happy for you. you're great and you deserve anything great that ever happens to you. i love you more than life itself.

meshell, i miss you! even though we've hung out more, i want to see you more. as soon as this crewing is done, you're all OURS!! i love love love you

heather, you're beautiful and amazing and i hope someday some boy will realize just how very special you are. until then, you're all mine.

so.. i have random things to say:

- i was talking to meshell on the phone today and i was driving to my house and coming down hornet onto berkeley was a guy on his bike. he was tearing down the hill at high speeds and just as i was coming up to turn this boy just flies off his bike and eats the biggest shit of his life right next to my car. i'm literally laughing outloud as i write this. he like lies in the street for like 3 minutes all the while i'm yelling at him asking if he needs help bc a car's gonna hit him!!! and meshell thought i got in an accident. oh wow it was great.

- mexico was so much fun. although, i keep finding scratches all over my body. no kidding. the fatty cut on my foot was sterilized with tequila while in mexico. and i have a fatty knot on my head from the shower rod falling on me. that was probably the funniest thing ever.

- the printer at work SAID about 100 pages ago that it was out of ink, and here i am printing away. freaking swindeling bastards trying to rip me off.

- good pictures from mexico. i wish i had photo paper that i could print them out on. but i don't :-(

- i'm happy

..The Basics..
Gender?: girl
Sexual Orientation?: me likey boys
Single?: yep
Would you like to be?: i don't care
Birthday?: dec 24, 1985
Age you act?: idk
Age you wish you were?: 23
Height?: 5'2"
Eye color?: hazel
Happy with it?: yeah
Hair color?: brown
Happy with it?: want it to be my natural color
Left/right/ambidextrous?: righty tighty baby
Your living arrangement?: home :-(
Family?: big?
Job?: receptionist
Piercings?: my ears
Tattoos?: dos
Obsessions?: food
Can you speak another language?: some espanol, and i'm fluent in farsi haha jk
Favorite quote?: "kt, you're in a pickle"
Any webpages?: lj myspace
..Deep Thoughts..
Do you live in the moment?: too much at times
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yeah, i need more patience tho
Do you have any secrets?: sadly i can't keep them all, but there are definitely secrets i have
Do you hate yourself?: am i emo! no!
Do you like your handwriting?: yeah
Do you have any bad habits?: yes, i have add, not a habit but more of an energy
What is the compliment you get most from people?: damn youz a hottie. jk
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: kts world
What's your biggest fear?: snakes, tire popping in my face while i'm filling it up
Can you sing?: haha no
Do you ever pretned to be someone else just to look cool?: no!
Are you a loner?: yeah i have no friends jk
If you were another person, would you want to be friends with you?: hellz yes
Are you a daredevil?: not in the least
Is there anything you fear/hate about yourself?: that i talk too much?
Are you passive or agressive?: way to agressive
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strenghth, i've been through a lot in life and i'm still okay.. weakness, add
If you could change one thing about yourself?: skinnier
There are three wells, love, beauty & creativity, which one do you choose?: l.o.-l.o.-l.o.v.e.
How do you vent?: talk to my homies
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: freakin yeah
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing?: well i try not to regret, but really i do
Do you think life has been good so far?: yeah
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: you gotta have faith
What do you like most about your body?: idk
and least?: my freakin legs
Do you find yourself attractive?: oh yeah hhaa
Are you confident?: yeah
What fictional character are you most like?: boo from monsters inc.
Do people know how you feel?: yes
Are you perceived wrongly?: probably sometimes
..Do you?..
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Read the newspaper?: yeah
Pray?: i try
Go to church?: when i'm not working which i know is a horrible excuse
Talk to strangers who IM you?: never i am mean to them
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no i sleep with my blanky
Take walks in the rain?: kyle and myles and me had the best day ever in the rain!!!!!
Talk to people even though you hate them?: cordially
Drive?: yeah
Like to drive fast?: i look around for the 5-o when i'm doing so (haha that rhymed)
..Have you ever?..
Hurt yourself?: yeah when i get reeeeeeeealllly mad at myself i hit my head, idk i'm a freak i swear
Been out of the country?: yeah mehico and canada
Eaten something that made others sick?: haha prob playing truth or dare
Been unfaithful?: to whom
Been in love?: i think as capable of love as you can be at that age
Done drugs?: yeah
Gone skinny dipping?: hell yeah, it's awkward
Had surgery?: oral surgery
Ran away from home?: to my side yard haha, my mom took pics
Played strip poker?: hell yeah and I WON!!
Got beaten up?: no i do the beating up
Been picked on?: all the freakin time
Been on stage?: yeah
Slept outdoors?: yeah
Pulled an all-nighter?: yeah d.c.
What's your record?: like 47 hours
Talked on the phone all night?: til the wee hours of the morning
Slept together with someone of the opposite sex but didn't have sex?: oo baby yes
Slept all day?: yeah i love it
Killed someone?: umm if i did i wouldn't state it here
Made out with a stranger?: yeah
Had sex with a stranger?: ew no
Had sex at all?: yeah
Thought you were going crazy?: each and every day
Kissed the same sex?: haha technically no
Anything sexual with the same sex?: ewww no
Been betrayed?: who hasn't!
Had a dream that came true?: eh not really in particular
Broken the law?: yeah
Met someone famous?: yes :______( and lost the camera that documented it
Killed an animal by accident?: hell yeah i annihilated an opposum once
Stolen anything?: yeah
Been on the radio/TV?: umm i dont' think so
Been in a mosh-pit?: ew no
Had a nervous breakdown?: proabbly
Considered a religious vocation?: no
Been criticized about your sexual performance?: not to my face?
Bungee jumped?: never
Had a reoccuring dream?: yes
..Clothing..
Shoe brand?: i like steve maddens
Clothing brand?: f21 babay
Scent?: j'adore dior or coco madamoiselle chanel
Normal attire?: f21 haha
Do you wear hats?: angels baseball hats!
Do you wear make-up?: yes
Favorite place to shop?: freakin f21 and nordys
Favorite article of clothing?: clothes
Are you trendy?: yeah
Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: yeah
..Beliefs..
Life on other planets?: no
Miracles?: yeah
Astrology?: no
Magic?: HARRYYYY POTTAAA no
God?: most definitely
Satan?: yeah
Santa?: no :-(
Ghosts?: no but i swear i have one in my house haha
Luck?: no
Love?: yeah
Love at first sight?: no
Yin & Yang?: no
Witches?: how can you believe in witches and not magic
Easter bunny?: my momma!
Is it possible to be faithful forever?: yeah
Is there a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no
Do you wish on stars?: yeah for fun
..Love..
Do you remember your first love?: aww the days haha yeah i guess
Still love him/her?: no
Do you consider love a mistake?: no
What do you find romantic?: suprises
Turn-on?: height/hottie
Turn-off?: jerk, well no umm bad breath
Do you go more by looks or personality?: personality, bc looks come with personality
Do you think the opposite sex finds you attractive?: freakin i hope
What is best about the opposite sex?: aww hugs
and worst?: they're heart breakers!
What's the last present someone gave you?: um my mom bought me stuff
Are you in love?: no
Is you signifcant other hot?: if i had one, he sure would be
..The last person who..
Haunted you?: umm moaning myrtle
You wanted to kill?: this bitch agent
You laughed at?: myself
Turned you on?: ooo boys
You went shopping with?: my mom
Broke your heart?: boy
Disappointed you?: friend
Made you cry?: my parents
Brightened your day?: um my mom was pretty nice to me yesterday
You thought about?: you
You saw a movie with?: becky failure to launch
You talked to on the phone?: i said "coldwell banker previews international" and a fax machine beeped at me
You talked to on IM: brando
You saw?: agents
You lost?: my grandma Betty
You thought was insane?: oo myself probably
You told off?: ooo idk
You trusted?: trust no one
You turned down?: you
..When was the last time you?..
Smiled?: now!
Laughed?: earlier today
Cried?: thursday night, i was like hysterical
Bought something?: lunch subway EAT FRESH
Danced?: dance party jfo's garage haha
Were sarcastic?: daily
Hugged someone?: idk
Talked to an ex?: today two of 'em
Watched your favorite movie?: ooo last week
Had a nightmare?: omg, i rarely have nightmares and i had one that the airplane i was on was going to CRASH!!!!
Talked on the phone?: it's my job
Listened to the radio?: yesterday
Watched TV?: friday night
Went out?: last night
Helped someone?: today i faxed stuff for some peeps
Were mean?: shoot never jk
Sang?: during my lunch break
Saw a movie in a theater?: two thursdays ago
Said "I love you"?: today
Missed somone: everyday
Fought with a family member?: thursday
Fought with a friend?: today i guess
Had a serious conversation?: today
Got drunk?: get drunk get crunk get buzzed get fuccked up... um last saturday
Had sex?: none of your buisness!!!!
Ten Song You Love
1. goodnight and go-- imogen heap
2. speed of sound-- coldplay
3. warning-- incubus
4. SINCE YOU BEEN GONE-- kelly clarkson
5. behind these hazel eyes-- kelly clarkson
6. hear me out-- frou frou
7. shiver-- coldplay
8. evil-- interpol
9. piano man-- billy joel
10. rap in general
Nine Things That Make You Smile
1. food
2. my bestest friends
3. shopping
4. sleeping ( i smile when i' sleeping)
5. when my family is eating dinner
6. grace
7. the beach
8. the future
9. when i'm drunk i'm just so happy
Eight Things You Wear Daily?
1. bra
2. chones
3. blush
4. necklace
5. shoes/sandels
6. mascara
7. clothing
8. eyeliner
Seven Things That Annoy You?
1. freakin meanies
2. being talked down to
3. when people clear their throat/cough incessantly
4. bad drivers
5. when people sing louder than the music
6. when my rooms messy, which it is 50% of the time
7. the fact that i have to work
Six Things You're Looking Forward To?
1. the future
2. having a family
3. love i hope
4. MEXICO!
5. this summer
6. wakeboarding this summer
Five Things You're Afraid Of
1. a tire popping in my face
2. snakes
3. getting water in my ears
4. rollercoasters
5. scary drivers

i love when past personal accomplishments give you the faith that you can do it again.

i'm so excited for beckys birthday:
wednesday (her b-day): DISNEYLAND!! woo woo
thursday: dinner with the girls/clubbin'
saturday: partying like it's all our birthdays for HER birthday!!

lots of things are going on.
i'm trying to stay on top of it all.
there are good... there are bad.
good:
i'm going to santa barbara this weekend.. yeessssss
i got a sidekick... double yessss
job's going to change and get very interesting very soon
good friends
school is easy
bad:
mark may be having surgery on blood clots.. scary but not freaking yet
no money
mother is literally crazy

so the good def. outweighs the bad and it's better to think that way.
it's all going to be okay.
i promise.
right?

i have been having way too much fun lately. it's a beautiful thing. my girls and i sure know how to have ourselves a good time. each week something fun/funny has happened, but meshell's birthday was the best ever.
i'll share some pictures

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scene: katie sitting at work reading old lj's because she's bored.

-phone rings-

kt answers: "hello"

caller: kyle (brother)

kyle: "katie. the crunch wrap supreme is back"

kt: "cool, you called to tell me that?"

kyle: "yeah, only because it's the best food at taco bell ever"

kt: "hahahahahahahaha"

i ♥ my brother

(most of the time)

L A S T P E R S O N W H O

1. Slept in your bed: becky
2. Saw you cry: momma
3. Made you cry: friend
4. Went to the movies with you: nicki and andrea
5. You went to the mall with: i can't even remember?
7. You went to dinner with: my cousin and her fiance
8. You talked on the phone with: becky
9. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it: my mother
10. Broke your heart: people
11. Made you laugh: "GM"- becky... meaning "good morning"
12. Bought you something: lol becky bought us all dinner last night

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R

1. peirce your nose or tounge? nose
2. be serious or be funny? funny
3. drink whole or skim milk? neither ick
4. die in a fire or drown? why would you ever consider either?
5. spend time with your parents or go down on someone? spend time with my parents!

A R E Y O U

1. Simple or complicated? oh so complicated
2. Hardcore or nerdy? hardcore GANGSTA
3. Honest? most of the time

D O Y O U P R E F E R

1. flowers or angels?: the ANGELS
2. gray or black? black
3. Color or Black and white photos? color
4. lust or love?: l-o-v-e
5. sunrise or sunset?: sunset
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: peanut m&ms
7. rap or rock?: rap fooooooooo
8. staying up late or waking up early?: staying up late, i'm pro

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y

1. Do you like anyone?: of course
2. Do they know it?: don't they all

D O Y O U P R E F E R

1. being hot or cold? warm?
2. sun or moon?: sun
3. Winter or Fall?: fall
4. left or right?: right
5. having 10 acquaintances or having 2 best friends? how bout like 4 bf's?!
6. sun or rain?: sun!!
7. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: vanilla
8. Vodka or Jack?: vodka, esp. watermelon flava

A B O U T Y O U

What time is it?: 9:45am
Name?: katie francis mcdorman
Nickname(s): kt

W H A T D O Y O U W A N T

Where do you want to live?: san francisco
How many kids do you want?: 3
What kind of job do you want?: high school teacher i think
Do you want to get married?: duh


U N I Q U E

1. Nervous Habits?: i bite my lip
2. Are you double jointed?: no
3. Can you roll your tongue? yeah i can make the taco
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yep
5. Can you cross your eyes?: yep
6. Do you make your bed daily?: no

C L O T H E S E T C.

1. Which shoe goes on first?: i think left
2. ever thrown one at someone? who throws a SHOE! haha
3. What jewelry do you wear?: my bracelet necklace ring and earrings

F O O D

1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: twirl
2. Have you ever eaten Spam? no way
3. Favorite ice cream flavor?: mint n' chip
4. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet?: like 2, with moths in them, no one eats them
5. What's your favorite beverage? wata
6. What's your favorite restaurant?: red robin
7. Do you cook?: i try

G R O O M I N G

1. How often do you brush your teeth?: a day: 2xpday
2. How do you wear your hair for the most part?: straight down
3. Have you ever dyed/highlighted your hair? 3x in the past year, and i'm done now

M A N N E R S

1. Do you swear?: yes but i'm trying to stop
2. Do you ever spit: lol like a major leaguer
4. You do your own chores?: i do ALL the chores
5. You got laid today?: as a matter of fact.... haha no
6. You like beef jerky?: i love it, and my grandpa used to make the best beef jerky.
7. You like pepsi or coke?: diet pepsi
8. You plan on going to college?: i'm in college
9. You're happy with your hair? i love the color
10. You own a dog?: maddie!
11. You spend your money wisely?: not in the least
12. You're always making new friends?: of course
13. You like to swim?: without getting my ears wet
14. have you ever got so bored you call a friend?: each and every day, multiple times
15. You're patient?: oh no
16. You like this survey? i'm bored

L E T ' S B E H O N E S T

In the last month have you...
1. Bought something: yes
2. Gotten sick: yes
3. Sang: yes
4. Been kissed: yes
5. Felt stupid: oh this occurs more than the others
6. Missed someone: yes
7. Got drunk: yes
8. Gotten high: last month. sadly
9. Danced crazy: hell yeah at the club
10. Gotten your hair cut: my bangs were cut
11. Watched cartoons: no
12. Lied: on this quiz!! haha

H A V E Y O U E V E R

1. Wished you were the opposite sex: yes
2. Snuck out of your house: one time ever.

i don't know what to write, although i want to.
i went to school this week. it felt good, although i nap all the time now.
i looooooooooove to sleep.
and i love to read. my life's all good.
a little drama here, a little drama there. it's do-able.

it's raining.
i'm at work.
i'm reading a book, it's called "something borrowed." it's about a girl who sleeps with her best friends fiance and thus far, they're in loooove.
i'm a little hungover, because apparently i can't drink without a hangover anymore. but i'm used to going to work on like less than 5 hours of sleep. last night, it was 3.5 hrs. it's all good.
christmas/new years/birthday are over and i'm so glad it's january and so glad it's 2006 and so glad that i'm 12 months closer to 21. i feel it's going to be a pivotal year, but then again, things never turn out the way you think.
i'm not where i thought i'd be at 20, i wasn't where i thought i'd be when i was 19, but i sure as hell hope that i'll be somewhere when i'm 21.

i'm so scared to drive. some motherfucker ran my dad off the road causing this:

 i swear if ever came across this guy, he'd have another thing coming to him.

thank God that he's okay. i didn't know it was this bad.

and to walk away with scratches and being sore is beyond my comprehension. i have SO MUCH to be thankful for.

 i can't believe i let other petty lying losers get me down.

happy new year's 2006
craziest shit of my life
and it keeps on coming

chronicles of narnia. AMAZING. nuff said.

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
hmm i really don't know.. umm i really can't think of something that stands out!

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
no and no

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes

5. What countries did you visit?
i visited states :-( no countries

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a good year

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
um april and septembe and august all hard months that i'll always remember

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
buying my car

9. What was your biggest failure?
getting fat

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yes i had a bad ear infection

11. What was the best thing you bought?
a car

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
umm i dk

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
idk

14. Where did most of your money go?
bills bill bills

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my car!

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
SINCE YOU BEEN GONE!!!!!!!!! and don'tcha

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter :-(
iii. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
slept

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
shopped

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
home to dads

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
maybe

23. How many one-night stands?
haha none

24. What was your favorite TV program?
dude grey's anatomy and everybody loves raymond. i want to marry raymond

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no

26. What was the best book you read?
a million little pieces

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
kelly clarkson FOR SURE

28. What did you want and get?
a new car

29. What did you want and not get?
a new cell phone

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
wedding crashers!!!!!! eee and harry potter

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i haven't had it yet.. but i'll be TWENTY

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
less shitty luck

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
whatever was clean

34. What kept you sane?
gunit

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
sarah jessica parker and DERMOT MULRONEY

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
i ca'nt think of one, it's too early

37. Who did you miss?
different people at different times

38. Who was the best new person you met?
no one new

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
cherish your family

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
i'll just say a song. don't stop believin' --journey

this is for my love heather